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|Friday, August 21st, 2009|
August 21st 2009 & 4:49pm
sometimes, i find something that i wasn't expecting, and it's amazing"...it turns out heaven is a junk shop, a vast sweet-smelling place where God keeps all his broken things. There you can find all sorts of things lying next to each other- lost violins and Shakespeare's not-so-great plays. Bad artists and good politicians. Busted dog collars and tangled jump ropes. Confused philosophers and chipped coffee cups. Perfect in its way- broken beauty everywhere..." Pretty Little Mistakes
, by Heather McElhatton
i'm not sure why, but i think this is the most amazing and perfect description of the concept of 'heaven' that i've ever read. i like it better than fluffy clouds and harps, anyway.
Jess out Current Mood: content
|Wednesday, February 18th, 2009|
February 18th 2009 & 9:23pm
Been kinda AWOL the last few days. I'm sure y'all missed me muchly. Reason for my absence is that on sunday morning, my grandfather took a turn for the seriously worse. He had had a fairly nasty liver cancer for the last six months, the treatment for which had kicked his immune system into the ground, and it was generally too many hits for one body to take. So my time has basically been at the hospital or at home.
He passed away this morning. We knew that it was only a matter of time, but its still hard. Thing is, i have to be there for my family. My grandmother is...crumpled. So i'm not breaking down. But i am going to be incommunicado-girl for the next few days more.
You know something? He died at 11:11.
Make a wish, papa bear. I miss you.
|Saturday, July 26th, 2008|
July 26th 2008 & 9:42pm
1. One secret. Current Mood: curious
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. One love note, but it does not have to be for me.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. And a hint to who you are.
9. After you do it for me, put it in your LJ and see who does it for you.
Lets see where this goes
|Wednesday, June 4th, 2008|
June 4th 2008 & 8:58am
Requiem- a connection with my past.
At approximately 3 pm yesterday afternoon, one of our good family friends Peter Hidi died. I don’t know nearly enough about him, not nearly as much as I should know. One of my fondest and most cherished childhood memories is the swimming days at the Hidi’s house- my cousins would come along too, and we would hide under the table and sneak the tiny little sandwiches laid out on silver platters, while the grown-ups drank wine and laughed at us. Their pool was always beautifully freezing. Hidi-petar was of my grandparents’ generation, from Hungary, which means he too suffered the horrors of WWII. I don’t know how many he lost, or who, or why. This is what I mean- I should know these things. I’m not making any sense. I have an exam tomorrow, its my birthday tomorrow, and I can’t bring myself to care. No, that’s a lie, I do care. I just….care from a distance. Like I can’t really feel it, properly. I can’t explain it more than that.
I’m going to learn Hungarian, properly. All the people that know it and are fluent in it are of Hidi-Petar’s generation, and I’m not going to let the beautiful language be lost to the past. Hidi-Petar, Mi akarat elvét ön
-on körülbelül 3 miniszterelnök tegnap délután , egy -ból -unk jó család barátok Péter Leplezés died. ÉN don’t tud közel elég róla , nem közel annyi ahogy ettem kellet volna tud. Egy -ból az én -m a leghiszékenyebb és a leg--bb gyöngéden szeretett gyerekkor emlékmű van a úszás napok -nél Leplezés ház - az én -m unokatestvérek akar jön mentén túl , és mi akar eldug az asztal alatt és settenkedik a picike kicsi szenndvicsek fektetett ki -ra ezüst tálak , rövid idő a felnőtt - felemel ivott bor és nevet nálunk. -uk medence volt mindig szépen fagyasztás. Leplezés - petárda volt -ból az én -m nagyszülők nemzedék , -ból Magyarország , ami azt jelenti ő túl szenvedett a rémületek -ból WWII. ÉN don’t tud mennyi ő elveszett , vagy ki , vagy miért. Ez mi ÉN jelent - ÉN kellet volna tud ezek dolog. I’m nem gyártás akármi értelem. Nekem van egy vizsga holnap , -a születésnapom holnap , és ÉN can’t hoz én magam -hoz gond. Nem , amit egy fekszik , ÉN csinál gond. ÉN just….care -ból egy messzeség. Szeret ÉN can’t igazán megtapint ez , illően. ÉN can’t megmagyaráz ez több mint amit. I’m haladó megtanul Magyar , illően. Minden az emberek amit tud ez és van folyékony benne van -ból Leplezés - Petárda nemzedék , és I’m nem haladó enged a gyönyörű nyelv elveszve lenni a múlthoz.
Peter Hidi, we will miss you.
Jess out. Current Mood: in mourning
|Wednesday, September 26th, 2007|
September 26th 2007 & 9:34pm
I ARE HIGH SCHOOL GRADUATE!!! Current Mood: ecstatic
|Sunday, September 2nd, 2007|
September 2nd 2007 & 7:05pm
Go on, guess!
Alright, fine, I'll tell you. I HAVE MY OWN ROOM. Yes, thats right, the Jess is finally finally finally for the first time in thirteen years, OUT of the two-by-two shared closet and into a NEW ROOM. Admittedly it isn't purple yet, but for now I'm happy to have my own sleeping space that I can legitamatley KICK PEOPLE OUT OF if I feel like it. Its sodding brilliant. Yeah it was always nice to know that if an axe murderer came into the house he'd top the person in the lower bunk first- always a comfort- but now I can put the posters I want up on the walls, and I have actual floor space (this is a very new thing for me; I'm spending a lot of time dancing and doing cartwheels.) So anyway tis wonderful and shiny and gorgeous and Ima thoooo happeeeeeee.
Real update...never. This is the best its going to get. So there.
Alright, I potht a pictcha.
Ah, Non Sequitur. How I love thee...
Jessnessness Current Mood: SQUEE
|Wednesday, July 11th, 2007|
July 11th 2007 & 11:02am
|It was the ninties, you know... (1990)
You are a ninties kid if...You can finish this:
[Ice Ice _ _ _ _ !]
You remember watching:
The Bugs Bunny Show
Ren & Stimpy
Pinky and the Brain
AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!
Rocko's Modern Life.
You've ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
You just cant resist finishing this . . . "Iiiiiiin West Philidelphia, born and raised . . ."
Playschool with Monica
Step by Step
Boy Meets World
You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons. (Saturday Disney, anyone?)
You remember reading "Goosebumps"... And "Animorphs"
Paul Jennings and Andy Griffiths were the funniest authors of all time.
You watched Round the Twist!
"This is a true story. It happened to a friend of a friend of mine..."
You took plastic cartoon lunch boxes to school.
You said "NOT" after (almost) every sentence . . . not
When everything was settled by:
Rock, Scissors, Paper.. ROOCK OFF!!!... some of us 90's kids still do it :P
There's a party by the pool, would you like to come?
Eeny, meeny, miny, mo!
When Cops and Robbers was a daily activity.
When we played Tiggy, Safe, 44 Home and Hide & Seek until our legs grew numb.
You used to listen to the radio all day long just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time.
Tazos owned chip packets.
The Spice Girls had serious girl power...
...and the Backstreet Boys simply ruled. (hmmm i guess thats why i was never a cool kid :P)
Captain Planet. He's a Hero.
You knew that Kimberly, the pink ranger, and Tommy, the green ranger, were meant to be together. Dah
You remember when Super Nintendos and Sega Genisis became popular.
You remember watching Home Alone 1, 2 , and 3 . . . and tried to pull the pranks on "intruders"
You remember watching:
Matheca's Math Shop
Agro's Cartoon Connection
Sale of the Century with Glen Ridge & Nicky Buckley (hopefully only with your parents).
Funniest Home Videos when Jo Beth Taylor was still the host.
You remember when Yo-Yos were cool.
You remember those Where's Wally books.
You remember eating Warheads.
You remember watching:
The first Batman
Ninja Turtles *first and the best!!!*
3 Ninjas movies
You remember Push Pops and Lucky Dips.
If you remember when every thing was "da BOMB!"
And YoGo gorilla... and the original Cocoa Pops monkey: "It's just like a chocolate milkshake - only crunchy!"
You remember boom boxes vs. CD players (and thinking that CDs would never make it in the future).
Home-made birthday cards were cool, especially the ones where you'd cut a mouth into it so that it opened up and a tongue popped out.
Making those little paper fortune things, and then
predicting your life with them. (chatterboxes!!!)
Tamagotchis had to be banned in school because of their popularity (they actually were at summer hill werent they? sigh...).
Leonardo DiCaprio was every girl's sweetheart.
FastFoward was the greatest sketch show on TV.
You watched The Nanny every night at 6:30pm on Channel 10.
You haven't always had a computer, and it was cool to have the internet.
And Windows 95 was the best.
"Emo" didn't exist (those were the days).
You watched the original cartoons of Rugrats, Power Rangers, and Ninja Turtles.
You knew Michael Jordan was the best all-time basketballer who played for the Chicago Bulls, even though we don't follow NBL basketball.
You remember when the new Beanie Kids and Talking Elmo were always sold out.
You collected those damn Beanie Kids.
Barbie & Ken by Mattel owned the shelves.
World 4 Kids, before Toys R Us.
Playdough was the coolest stuff invented.
The original five dollar notes.
You understand when I say "Cheez TV".
You collected all the Troll dolls.
If you even know what a walkman is.
The original Pokemon with Ash, Misty and Brock.
Before those try-hards at the Yu-Gi-Oh production plant.
You've gotten creeped out by "Are You Afraid of the Dark?"
You know the Macarena off by heart. (doesnt everyone?)
"Talk to the hand" . . . enough said
You always said, "Then why don't you marry it!"
When Charmed first aired with Prue.
You went to McDonald's to play in the playground, and Happy Meals only cost $2.95 for a cheeseburger, small fries and coke.
You remember playing on merry go rounds at the playground.
Before the MySpace frenzy . . .
Before the Internet & text messaging . . .
Before Sidekicks & iPods . . .
Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX . . .
Before Spongebob . . .
Back when you put off the 5 hours of homework you had every night.
When light up sneakers were cool. (Always wanted, never had...)
When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.
When petrol was $0.45 a litre & Caller ID was a new thing.
When you had to be one lucky kid to get a mobile phone before you were 16.
When we recorded stuff on VCRs.
When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off of our walkman.
You had slap bracelets!
Ahh the bad old days...
I'm not even going to bother to promise to update properly one of these days. We all know I wont. Maybe after the HSC has finished chewing me and spits me back out.
Howevar, just cos i'm feeling generous, here is a picture. Credit goes to Shiv, creator of the wonderful Oh My Gods! comic strip. http://i207.photobucket.com/albums/bb53/hermiones-whore/objectsarecloserthantheyappear.gif
Yes. I am aware its a link. Yes, i fail at HTML. It wouldnt work! Tried posting with it, failed miserabley. Sue me.
Adieu, dear friends- adieu.
Jess Current Mood: amused
|Thursday, February 15th, 2007|
February 15th 2007 & 5:01pm
Why hello there! No, don't get your hopes up, this isn't a proper entry, just a leetle meme stoled from ieatmousse
1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I respond by asking you five personal questions so I can get to know you better. If I already know you well, expect the questions may be a little more intimate!
3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.
mine questions from my darling Nov:
1. Where is the place you would most like to visit?
Budapest, Hungary. Is where my mother's family is from and i have family there still, so would love to go there some time that i have of teh monies.
2. What is the most beautiful flower?
Gardenia. It looks like a rose but smells soo much betterer. Either that or frangipani.
3. What's the most embarrasing thing to ever happen to you?
When i was about three, my parents took me to a wedding. At said wedding, i decided it would be a good idea to go up to where the bride and groom were exchanging vows, and flash the entire congregation. True story.
4. Who do you most admire?
My grandmother. I know, how original, but seriously, the woman survived WW2 in one of the most anti-semetic countries (in those times) besides Germany, then escaped the Communist regime under cover of darkness saddled with a two year old and husband! Definitley admirable feats.
5. What is your favourite animal? (individual not species)
Ack! Way to make me pick, Nov! You all know my favourite species is cat, but my favourite animal would have to be my dog Bandit. Not cause he's a dog, but because he's my dog, and hes a sweetie. Even if he does occasionally wake me up at five am. *glares*
I will update soon. Really.
*hugs and love for Noviny*
*cherry ripes for Sushi*
BLessed be, all!
|Sunday, December 17th, 2006|
December 17th 2006 & 6:29pm
HI all! Vereh quick entry just to post the promised meme from before. So enjoy!( The Random Question Meme!Collapse )
Also, just for you, a picture of my friend, caught in a comprimising position with his inflatable boyfriend, Frosty.( Read more...Collapse ) Current Mood: boing!
|Tuesday, November 28th, 2006|
November 28th 2006 & 6:00pm
|Hurrah for an update!
Well hello there! Fancy seeing you here! Havent been around lately, have I? Ah well. School and ECA's have kinda eaten my life at the moment. I should be studying. Whos with me? Calculus is an entirley pointless subject and should go and die a horrible flamey death with fire and burning pain. It is also far too hot! I believe I mentioned in a previous entry that i loathe summer. Well, to reiterate, Summer also needs death. Bring back winter!! Current Mood: in love
At any rate, I need to vanish to go to Tae Kwon Do, I promise i will update properly soon! THis was just a reminder that i do in fact exist, i havent vanished off the face of the earth in a puff of purple smoke, and will return triumphantly dejected when i have time to update! Adieu!
[edit:] I attempted to do a meme today, but my computer obviously doesn't like it because it tried to eat itself when i attempted to post this. Ah well, next time!
So long and farewell dear friends,
Hugs and love to ieatmousse who is at IMP. Twas our three months on monday! And he wrote me a poem. *swoons*
|Saturday, September 9th, 2006|
September 9th 2006 & 9:33pm
|hello once again
Evening, ladies and gents! Current Mood: (seeing ben tomorrow)
Guess who is finally returning to the eljay side of the internets? Thats right!! I do exist...vaguely. Although exams are threatening to obliterate me. Drowning under a sea of textbooks and study notes. And fanfiction geekery. Lol I'm a fanfiction nerd now, its quite fun. Entertaining. But there is other, much more interesting and happy and squee-worthy news in my life...
Ben clearly spoiled my big surprise. SO. yes, tis true, we are going out. I have been going around with a huge stupid grin on my face for the past couple weeks...so, as is detailed in my MSN name, i am deliriously, perfectly, deliciously, ridiculously happy. And i'm going to see him tomorrow. In fourteen hours and ten minutes, to be exact. Lady above, im sad.
Anyway. Yeah. Thats pretty much the big thing in my life atm. So, at the risk of rambling more than i usually do, i'm going to sign off here, and leave ye with the promise that i shall update more than once a year in future!
|Monday, July 10th, 2006|
July 10th 2006 & 12:23pm
|WARNING: Fangirlyness ahead!
Hello people. If you get annoyed by insane fangirling then leave now, or forever hold your peace. You have been warned. Current Mood: mmmm...jack sparrow...
Oh. Your. Fucking. God. Pirates 2 is the most awsome movie EVUR (Excepting pirates one, of course) Plenty of emotional turmoil, which was nice, diffrent, un-yew-shual. And more closeups of Johnny Depp. Which just makes any movie complete. *drools* Jack Sparrow is his sexiest role ever i swear. Just cannot believe the ending...like three cliffhangers in one!! O goddess i dont think i can wait until the summer hols for the third one :( anyone want to come with me to japan or wherever for pirated (HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA) copies?
Ok i'll stop spamming you now. Whats going on in my life at the moment? Not a great deal. As usual, love life is so incredibly screwed that i have stopped thinking about it (mostly) and am being screwed over emotionally by at least one person. Im hopless! I should just say to myself "Jessica. No. More. Until. After. Exams!!!!!!!!!" Ive already fscked one exam because of this shit. Lucky it wasnt an assessment task....ooh dear.
Launching out an appeal here to Ben, please i have no memory of our msn conversation the other night. Help? I dont think i drank that much...uh oh. Did i? Wonderful.
Ending here, hope your holidays are going well people, mine are currently involving a lot of bludging and procrastinating!
|Sunday, July 2nd, 2006|
July 2nd 2006 & 10:41am
This entry is dedicated to Ben for he claimed that people cannot comment on what does not exist, therefore i am posting, thence you people must comment!!! I love my logic :D
So, whats the haps in my life at the moment? Yesterday i went to see Stick It at burwood, its an ok movie but it completely reminded me why exactly i no longer do gymnastics. Those people are scary, no jokes. I have trained with a couple of elite gymnasts, and i can categorically state that they are NOT HUMAN. Jump down turn around pick a bale of cotton, apparently. I swear, some of those girls look as though you could breathe on them and they'd snap, they're so skinny. Again, if i had continued with gym i'd probably be more ana than i already am. A scary thought.
dOES anyone have a WMD i could borrow? I need to injure certain people from my drama class. No names named, but one guy there decided it was a cool idea to call me a VERY nasty name in front of the entire class, while they were all silent. Idiot, and i do NOT care if it was vaguely true, it was still a stupid thing to do. I thwacked him with my hairbrush, hardly hard at all, because he was being an idiot, and he was like "Oww!! ****" im not going to say the word because it makes my mouth/fingers cause im typing feel dirty, but take my word for it it was nasty enough to give me cause to hold a grudge for more than a week,
NOw i will end my pitiful excuse for an update , and may you all have happier holidays than mine are looking to be- homework, homework, and more homework.
Blessed Be, all.
Jess Current Mood: blah
|Wednesday, June 21st, 2006|
June 21st 2006 & 9:09pm
Happy winter solstice to all! May ye be happy and merry and whatnot, and snuggly and warm in various doonas (mmm....doona....) Anywho, short and sweet entry just to let you know that i am alive and kicking and still shrieking at extension english.
Blessed be, all,
Jessnessness Current Mood: Solstice!
|Monday, June 12th, 2006|
June 12th 2006 & 5:08pm
Twas my party on sat'dee, for those that DIDNT SHOW UP, lol joking im mean, but here is a loverly picspam for you
Enjoy, my dear friends. Blessed Be!
Jessnessness Current Mood: party!
|Tuesday, June 6th, 2006|
June 6th 2006 & 4:57pm
So. Are we all ready for the world to end today? I personally cant wait. I want to know the child that was born on the 6th hour of the 6th minute etc. Methinks they will be stoned. Poor kid.
I got called a satanist three times today.....:P NEWS FLASH: THE PENTACLE IS ONLY SATANIST IF IT IS TURNED UPSIDE DOWN!!! I AM NOT A BERLOODY SATANIST!!!!! PAGAN!!! GET IT RIGHT!!!!
</rant> anyway. i wont clog your friends page any more, wow two entries in two days. go me! Dont expect entries for another, oh, say, YEAR or so. Im off to panic about impending assessment tasks.
Jessnessness (who is a PAGAN, NOT
a satanist!) Current Mood: apocalyptic
|Monday, June 5th, 2006|
June 5th 2006 & 8:09pm
from the title, methinks you can guess what this entry is going to be about. Hells yes, i am now SIXTEEN WOOT WOOT...although, not technically for another 45 minutes :P but still. Am sixteen - win! I have reccieved quite a few lovely presents from fambly etc, and am SOO hyper about my party on sat'dee!! And as Neecole said: "HAPPY FREAKIN SWEET SIXTEENTH BIRTHDAY TO JESS!!!"
Thankee to nick and ben for updates in my honour :D hugs for you both.
(insert oath promising to update later with real update even though we all know i wont here)
 And a big big thankyou to TINA as well, aka lpassociation
, for her sweet-as eljay entry for me too! HUGS FOR YOU TINA!! Current Mood: BIRTHDAYYYYYY!!!
|Saturday, May 27th, 2006|
May 27th 2006 & 4:49pm
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NICK. ALL MUST BOW AND ACKNOWLEDGE!!! Happy birthday m'dear, hope you have an awsome day and may there be many happy returns!!
Blessed be, all.
Jessnessness Current Mood: i have no idea.
|Monday, May 22nd, 2006|
May 22nd 2006 & 5:44pm
|Update + Meme goodness!
I am updating again, really must do this more often. trouble is, i lead an incredibly dull life so therefore have nothing to report.
|You Are Raspberry Chocolate Lip Gloss|
You tend to approach life as a fun game - being playful at every turn.
You're a flirt with flair, and your the type most likely to surprise your date.
But you're popularity doesn't stop with guys... you've got a great group of girlfriends too!
You're fresh, fun, and more than a little sassy. The tangy taste of raspberry and watermelon goes great on your lips.
Mmm...chocolate. Excellent. And all scarily true...hmm. When Meme's start being accurate, i start worrying.
In other news, there is no other news. I have a dull life. English this year is a bitchbitchbitchbitch and i hate it, too many freaking essays :'( extension assessment task tomorrow *panics* i should probably do something to prepare, eh? Meh. Six pages, i'll live. Not. Anyway.
I am feeling at the moment...a little strange, a little excited, and a lot weird. Lol, my friend just said i needed introspection. Um, me, go inside my head?? NO thank you! It is a strange and scary place, THAR BE MONSTERS!!!
Woot! WEaring rainbow socks! Toe socks! FOR THE WIN! hee hee me and jess both turned up in stripy toe socks to drama today. Well i found it funny. Upshut.
That was me talking to the little voice in the back of my head that tells me I'm rambling incoherently. It has been drowned out by the voice of the leprechaun on my shoulder that tells me to light fires.
Blessed be, people.
Jessnessness Current Mood: flirty
|Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006|
May 2nd 2006 & 5:54pm
|update at long last
Ok, it has officially been aaages since i updated, so here you go, feel privelaged.
My life, currently, hurts. A lot. Some reasons will be fairly public knowledge, others i keep locked far far away, and it hurts that i have to distance myself from some people in order to keep my secrets safe. I want to finish writing my story but i have about three going atm and i really am not bothered, writing sounds like it involves an awful lot of effort for this moment in time.
Its funny almost, how the only person i really feel like i can confide in i can't, because they are part of my deepest sorrow.
Wow, angsty entry. Hade's halls i'll be wearing arm socks and eyeliner covering half my face before long.
ON a lighter note, V for Vendetta is the most awsome movie evur. Seriously, go and see it if you are into people blowing things up a lot and a fair amount of violence. *shudder* Totallitarian Britain is not a nice picture to imagine. Anywho, i am ranking it up there with Pirates of the Carribean, and for those that know me that is a very
Arrivaderci a tutti
Jess Current Mood: worried